thoughts

i think i find someone special someone that can deal with my stuff and actually like me. two texts in one night in a week. second one apologizes for the first. could be apologizing for being intoxicated while sending it, kinda think he's apologizing for the xoxos sent to me in it. thought i was over it. waited like 2 days and texted him after that night. i miss having someone to care about me and have potential. think there's a mole at work, turning people for not doing their job. ya we should be but they should come to us. let lead worker now, feel like quitting before i get fired for stuff. next day think maybe they aren't a mole. figure out one turn in was a rumor, but wasn't good staff one. didn't get yelled at for it. don't feel like quitting as much, but still might turn in applications at some places. what to do what to do feel like one of my friends think i'm just trying to date him. i'm not. just enough his company as a friend. don't think he'd see me as more anyway. not lonely but it'd be nice to have a warm body and a caring heart again. random thoughts in my head. get excited want more get let downish. ugh....sad night for sarah but holding her own