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so lately ive been doing a lot thinking and going back and forth abut what i want. new people are coming back into my life making think hmmm maybe this can be rekindled. then there was that one i keep coming back to but i also think if he can't commit or do something evne though were far away whos to say he would do anything when i got there and if he's too busy now how can he make time ifi wer there. i doubt i'll mve on form that fora bit cuz he seems like a good catch for me. he lets me text vtoo much and still talk to me and lets me be crazy and see things that i probably shouldnt cuz theyre too much like a gf. i can see myself w/ a family but at tha saem time i don't know if i know what love is. dmy roommate and i joke that we need strong men. maybe ewe do. but then gain maybe no ones strong enough for me. idk if i want long teerm. i aslo lost my sex drive for most men. idk i want it all and idwant nothing and i complaion about it and think about it too much and i have no life. i am tryng to get another job htough. wanting to hear back from salon to do an interview i guess. supposed to hear in a day or two. idk idk idk idk lalallalalal ognna get another roommate end of october il lve my friends cna't wdait until saturdsay should be a lot of fun. sorry for thse speellling didnt feel like fixing it. yesi k now i will eventually getit figured out and others are gong trhought it i just feel like i've over atlked it.